| I'm sitting in the open lab here at school;
it'll be about 5 minutes before I go to lunch. This weekend should be interesting.
I'm hitting the wayside again tonight with tiffany.
I got a super cute outfit to wear.. so I'm excited to look good.
And to dance my ass off.
And to drink.. Friday night I'm supposed to find a party and get wasted with sara.
Idk about that.
Saturday; kris is doing my hair and I haven't decided if I should go or not go to the battle of the bands.. Sunday is homework.
I've got 3 tests next week..
Ugh. I'm slacking with homework really bad.
And I got a C on my physical Science test that I thought I did good on.
Not goooood. Meanwhile. Lunch time. <3 |
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| good things happen to good people.
it's only a matter of waiting in line.
well; i hope my number comes up soon.
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| So things are different.
I'm doing good in my classes; except for English.
We have so much shit do every day that I just don't care enough.
I don't work at the movie theater anymore.
They let me go b/c I have another job at Grandpa's that I work 4 days a week.
It's bullshit really.
I got my nose re-peirced & a monroe.
So now I have that, an industrial, and my belly button.
I can't think of any other peircings I'd like besides certain ones on my ears. I have class in 25 minutes.
Then I'm done for th weekend.
Friday = Jimmy's b-day party at Kris'.
Saturday = Another b-day party.
& Sunday will be the day I lounge around and do homework.
For some reason I'm beginning to live and thrive for the weekends.
I'm also interested in a boy.
But I don't want it to go farther than that; owing to the fact that I'm not emotionally available.
Ugh; screw assholes. |
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| my life is complete shit right now.
i can't keep things going for me.
i never have enough money.
my car breaks every five seconds.
i got used.
i can't concentrate in classes.
my sociology & political science teacher is very close minded.
i refuse to cooperate with my parents.
i never get my shit done on time.
my head is about ready to explode every five seconds.
kristy has become my bestfriend.
and i only keep in touch with kristan.
i've been trying so hard to hang out with mandy & aimee;
but it's hard when all i do is work; school; & sleep.
my parents are NEVER happy with me;
because i fuck up every five seconds.
i can't stop fucking up.
i don't find any interest in dating right now.
i just want to quit school, be rich somehow;
and always be busy doing things.
i never want a moment to myself.
i have too much of that when i'm at school;
work; etc.
i just want to stop thinking about everything.
about everything.
and i need to stop be so pessimistic;
but i am just shit out of luck on that one.
i wish i could skip this.
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| thanksgiving was pretty lame.
was hung over for the most part.
went bowling with my new friend nick last night.
hung out at mandy's.
tonight is kris' house with sami.
i work today though from 4 to 9:45.
ugh.
i just want to play beer pong.
i'm doing everything i can do have fun.
to get my mind off everything else.
because that's the only way i can be happy.
i can still feel.
because i still in pieces.
but they're slowly falling back into place.
and i'll be okay.
i am okay.
i still believe that some things are just meant to be.
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